The Choice

When you have freedom of choice, rather than being subjugated to an ultimatum, that's when your choices matter, that's when you are consciously able to make a choice that is right (or is right in your mind given you have weighed in all other choices). Having the freedom to choose chocolate or vanilla, or may be a scoop of each, is better than being given vanilla even if you are a choco-kinda-guy/gal. When you make emancipated decisions you can easily stick by it and defend it- and those are the kind of choices that define you… It’s with those choices that you use your morality, conscious mind, heart, religion, culture, taste, favoritism, bias, knowledge and experience- this is when you factor in whatever you feel is necessary to choose the red pill or the blue pill.

Borrowing a Blog from John

Bed - A Blog by John Mayer
http://www.johnmayer.com/blog/permalink/5543
My whole life I've hated going to bed. I like falling asleep instead. Falling asleep is so much better than going to bed because you don't get tangled up in the logistics. Falling asleep happens for you, even if it means waking up at eight to the sun assaulting your eyes while a block of metal videos are playing on VH1 Classic. Then all you have to do is scamper over to your bed where you can capitalize on how fresh the memory of how to sleep is and instantly dip back into slumber. Going to bed invites performance anxiety. Going to bed means you have to confront a final moment of consciousness. I'm not a fan.
I hope you all fall asleep well tonight.
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Unafraid

Through it all what manages to remain is my plight to be unafraid
Unafraid of the leaps and fiery loops
Unafraid of the masked men and waxed women
Unafraid of the dagger or the sword
Unafraid of the parasites and the trolls
Unafraid of the nights and its hovering ghosts
Unafraid of the broken promises and hearts
Unafraid of the drought or the storm
Unafraid of the secrets
Unafraid of eyes and cursed tongues
Unafraid of the word that started it all
I am unafraid because the Lord is by my side
God carries me weightless on His shoulders above all the fears
I am unafraid because I believe.

Note to Self

The only person you are good at being is yourself...

Something

Everyone was meant for something, that's what we are brought up to assume, and we spend most of our life trying to sum up to that something. But most of the time we don't know what that something is. It's easy for Priests, they got it figured out, they are dedicated fully to God and serving the parish and their community- their something is selfless and holly. But what about the not so enlightened souls, what about the rest of us? What is our something and how are we ever going to become it?

I don't know what my something is, although ask me when I was a teen and I knew I wanted to be something big and important... It was easy then to dream big, it made you ambitious, drove you to college and lead you to graduating with a degree. But after college, after all homework assignments were handed in and exams were passed and you were booted into the real world, your something loses its grandeur, you realize that you have to pass through people like HR, sit in room with execs to impress them to land a job, or you join the family business- setting you up for life, so what if your something was meant to be an astronaut you are now going to be in the hospital equipment business. It's not easy to give up on your something, or to substitute it for a less glamorous something else.... it's not easy to stray away from the path you thought you had all figured out, it's not easy to become a something you don't recognize.