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A Conversation Between Dream and Reality

Dream: Don’t you get tired of being always self righteous and over calculating?

Reality: My self righteousness only comes in my ability to abandon hope and replace it with reason, to lead the future with vision, and look at the past as a learning, and live the present with cautiousness. So yes I am over calculating, because if I let things happen your way we wouldn’t get anywhere.

Dream: But you don’t get to taste the flavors of life if you don’t take the edge off and live a little- just put your sun shades on and strut around smelling every flower, engaging in every conversation, feeling like life is more than a series of events; it’s a mosaic of moments collated together to create the most magnificent tableau.

Reality: Do you hear yourself speak?! Your language is as absurd as your view on life. There is no time to take it all in and breathe it all out. You are so blinded by the world and its supposed pleasures that while you’re strutting around smelling your stupid flowers, I’m thinking of ways of preserving our ecosystem, while you are out making silly conversations with people that would add no benefit to your life, I am out making real connections with real people who can make a real difference. Your illusion clouds your judgment, whereas my reality check never bounces.

Dream: Your reality check will bounce when chasing me becomes near impossible. Without me you don’t have the vision you speak of, without me you won’t have reason to continue moving forward- I am your locomotive and your catalyst, I am the reason you exist.

Reality: But then by the same token, dear Dream, to realize you there has to be a ME- so that makes me the commander in chief. I don’t chase, I command and execute.

Dream: Haven’t you ever heard the term “chasing after a dream”? For someone who claims to know so much, you clearly don’t know anything at all.

Reality: No one has absolute knowledge, I never claimed to know it all- don’t be conclusive. Please leave deduction and analysis for those who know how to use it. And for your information I don’t chase a dream, I chase an end.

Dream: And what might that end be?

Reality:….

Dream: I see your words fail you- not so cheeky now are you? Let me fill in the blank for you- your end is realizing your dream.

Reality: Okay Little Miss Sunshine, calm down, you didn’t even give me a moment to explain. Not all of us wear our hearts on our sleeves, like you. Think first, speak after.

Dream: Heartless and cold

Reality: Delusional and pathetic

Dream: Rather pathetic in hope than dampened by regret.

Reality: Rather having feet on solid ground than hovering mid air.

Dream: There’s no point in arguing, we’ll never see eye to eye.

Reality: You’re right- why did we bother having this conversation in the first place?

Dream: May be I thought we could come to a mutual agreement on something for a change.

Reality: Agree to disagree sort of a thing?

Dream: Sure- to put it simply.

Reality: No please write a poem about it

Dream: No please give me a two page report analysis about it- double space with one inch margins.

Instinct: Both of you shut up- just trust in me- I will throw in a little reality and a sparkle of dream. Now go sleep the pair of you- I’m trying to rest to keep up the balance between you two exhausting morons!

Can't Shake Me

I am an Arab


I am a Christian.


I will not give up my right to be in my home because of fear of defective fundamentalist groups and militias rampaging the streets, threatening by rule of subjugation and masking it as the righteous path!

I will not give up my God to stay in my home. I will not cease from entering a church and worshiping God in fear of being ostracized just to preserve my Arabness.

From the bellowing streets of Baghdad to the Sudanese deserts, Christians are fleeing to the west- not out of choice but circumstance.

What if the same were to happen in the beautiful mountains and cities of Lebanon, to the grand cities and farm villages of Syria? What will happen then? I shudder just thinking about it.

I want my God and I want my home- I don’t want to be told that one day I have to leave the Middle East and seek refuge- I don’t want to have to live in fear.

Everyone has to learn to adapt, not by the sword but by the desire to coexist. All religions promote worshipping the goodness in life, worshipping God and being fair to others.

So if I was told to give up one or the other- I would tell that person to fuck off- because I am an Arab and I am a Christian- and I would never give up either one.

Firsts feel so nice

Since there is first time for everything thought that I would blog about blogging from the iPad for the first time.

10 Lessons from 2010

1) Take risks- but greater risks could mean greater rewards but harder hit losses


2) Forgiveness


3) Speaking your heart first and mind second


4) Patience is a true virtue


5) Only make promises you can keep 


6) Frivolity vs Fragility


7) Nothing lasts forever- there is always an end


8) Pursuing happiness is not a end- happiness is hard to define so hard to reach


9) Needs and Wants are two different things entirely


10) Hope is my life support

GI Jane and Attachment Barbie

There are so many moments while I am watching Grey’s Anatomy that I wish I had a pen and paper to jot down the smart and yet subtle things they say… or yes I know I can just as easily use my good old trusty Google to find that out. But there was one thing that was said in the last episode I watched that I remembered without needing a pen or Google. Here was the line:

Dr. Teddy Altman, “I went from being GI Jane to Attachment Barbie” (talking about her new fling).

Women in relationships are different, and in different relationships are pretty much the same (of course exceptions do apply). A girl could be anywhere from GI Jane strong, unattached, emotionally aloof- or even closed off to an Attachment Barbie where her entire existence is defined by her relationship.

Both extremes are problematic- yet both extremes have their virtues too.

The GI Jane- Checks and Balances

Strong and independent.

She is able to be passive and genuine about the relationship- often resorting to appeasement just simply because any emotional reaction (or even worse action) could lead to a weakness and rupturing of the walls of her heart- the very possession she is least willing to give up or listen to.

Initially in the relationship she is cool and collected and has her emotions in check. She follows intuition and gut feeling, but not blindly. Her complete control of all situations may make her appear shrewd yet cold, but she doesn’t care- she is poised- keeping everything in check, especially her heart. Her mind works diligently, like she went through extreme boot camp; reacts to triggers astutely and faces barriers with a heightened sense of realism.

The great quality of a GI Jane, in my opinion, is her basic instinct of trust. If she trusts the guy she will give him time, freedom and space. Win, win, and win from the guy’s perspective. But that trust can easily turn against her, her passivity may make the man think she is not invested in this relationship emotionally or that she is holding back giving him affection, like random texts and phone calls in the middle of the night. The GI Jane would be the girl who fights off the urge to call the guy simply because she misses him- because that goes against her streamlined thinking- things like this put kinks in her way. And the minute she caves to those tendencies, she is on the road to attachment; the scariest feeling for a woman defined by her independence.

The Attachment Barbie- X & O’s

Delicate.

She defines herself as someone’s girlfriend- and she loves to be introduced as that. The Attachment Barbie could be a very successful surgeon, but she cannot control her feelings like she takes control in her operating room- in the relationship she is open, easy to read and extremely sensitive. She over thinks a situation, and analyzes it from all directions- forgoing realism and instead opting for extremes such as “Oh my God, he doesn’t like me, he didn’t pick up my call.” When really the man was just in a meeting. She is the jealous kind, but her jealousy is sort of the naïve jealousy that comes as a result of her attachment to the man.

At the beginning of the relationship she is sensitive to a man’s action, words, and even lack thereof. She texts him as many times as an overzealous Tweeter, and she calls him every time he crosses her mind- and that could be 15 times a day! She craves attention, and loves to shower him with hers. Her day revolves around looking forward to seeing her beau or impatiently waiting for him to call back. She can’t sleep unless she speaks to him and can’t start her mornings without his wake up call. All her conversations are about him- at work, with her friends, at the hair salon, even to complete strangers. She could exert and dedicate all her time and energy towards this new relationship- and she could be completely oblivious to the reality of the situation. Her heart is made of cotton candy- and she is easily able to give it to her “love”.

Okay, so I might have defined the Attachment Barbie with a slight negative light- but some of her seemingly “bad” or “psycho” qualities, are the very qualities that a GI Jane doesn’t possess and that men love- especially her ability to be affectionate, giving and easy to read.

So which is best?

Taking me as an example, I have a mixture of both- at the beginning of a relationship I definitely more a GI Jane, but then eventually I drop the tough girl attitude, drop my artillery and grow out my hair- but I never dye it blond- in other words I never end up as a complete Attachment Barbie- because that’s just not me- and the best person I know how to be is myself.

Bottom line, if you’re a GI Jane then continue to fight as you do, resume your position and command, don’t try to be someone you are not. And if you’re an Attachment Barbie, then continue to be sensitive, open and delicate- because that’s the person you know how to be best. Just like you should not try to change a man, don’t try to change yourself for am man. Embrace the YOU in the relationship and if he doesn’t like it, well then hunny you’re with the wrong GI Joe or Ken.

C&C: Command and Conquer

Dear Man,

I think I got you figured out,

You don’t tamper with the

Unseen

Untouchable

Unheard

Because why would you trust something which you cannot conquer

But that which can conquer you?